I’m typing this on a Sunday evening while I’m waiting on my laundry to be done. Anyone who juggles a full time demanding job knows how fast weekends tend to fly by. Regardless of whether or not I have much of a life since Covid-19, the weekends always seem to go by fast.
I have had a history of dealing with depression and anxiety. Experiencing trauma tends to pull you into a not so ideal place at times. I am much more grounded today due to focusing on overall health and well-being. I cope with ensuring I get in physical activity most days, eat a decent diet and get enough rest. Most importantly, I decided over a year ago to hand my life over to God. This one decision to rededicate my life to Jesus ended up being the best decision of all and has truly defined me as the woman I am today.
Since March, like many of you, I no longer hang out at coffee shops, go to the movies, and drive my car to go on shopping trips. I have also decided to not plan any type of vacation for the remainder of the year. I also don’t go to the gym and have had to get by with the minimal equipment I have at home. There’s so much uncertainty and I know for me it’s been an anxiety attack waiting to happen at times. I know many people out there crave connection. Personally I have been handling everything pretty well mainly because by nature I am an introvert, but I also am craving life as I remember it sometimes too.
One of my favorite verses in the bible is 1 Peter, Chapter 5, verse 7: “Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.” This one verse has carried me through some of the darkest moments of my life over the past year. You see, learning to hand things over to God has truly worked miracles in my life. I am no longer consumed so much with the unknown and my faith continues to grow stronger.
Although I don’t think it’s wrong to lean into negative emotions I choose not to stay there. Focusing on the blessings I have in front of me has truly helped me get through rougher times.
As I have continued to walk in my personal journey in my faith, I am learning to rely more and more on God and what he has in store for me. I currently go to work and come home, and I rarely have interactions with others beyond my current situation. Being forced to slow down a little more has shown me the things that truly matter. My sanity is in check because I continue to stay grounded in my faith.
God wants the best for each and every one of us if we let him in. I consider the current season more of a time for insulation. I am grateful for the friends whom I have been able to connect with through technology and for the wonderful man I have in my life who continues to be the rock that I need to lean on. For me, I am doing what I need to do right now. There is a season for everything. Give yourself some grace, pick some things to help you cope, and most importantly I pray that you find comfort in our loving God who is always there to help you.